Late Night Thoughts

[queenbookwench]

I've been careless with people lately, and I regret it very much. I've been treading water the last month or so, avoiding everyone, avoiding myself, avoiding the future. I was so drained--mentally, physically, and emotionally--at the end of this past semester that I think I needed that for awhile, just to recuperate. But I let it go on way too long and I got stuck, mired in fear of change, fear of the Real World. I retreated too much into books and daydreams, and in the process, ignored my family and my friends. I don't like having to face my self-centered streak. But I'm _trying_ to move on now, and I wanted to issue a general non-specific apology (probably soon to be followed by specific ones to several people). I'm sorry, y'all.

Comments

[likeadeuce.livejournal.com]

awww, sweetheart, I'm sorry you feel this way. It sounds like a good thing to recognize if it's going on, but not to beat yourself up over, you know? And I've never known you to be self-centered, sweetheart. You have a lot to deal with in your life right now, and taking care of yourself is not the same as being self-centered. OK??? Sending much love your way, and veerrrrry sorry I wasn't in a good place to talk when you called the other night. I've been playing phone tag with everybody this week, and it's no fun -- I hope we get a chance to talk soon. West coast hugs--

[queenbookwench.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the luv, sweetie. And I'll call you soon; I know that taking care of myself and being self-centered aren't the same, but sometimes you know within yourself where the line is, if that made any sense whatsoever.

[ariadnesthread.livejournal.com]

I've been meaning and meaning to call or e-mail you, but I always think of it at inappropriate hours (7 a.m., midnight, that sort of thing).

Hope you're doing okay. Would call you today, but I left my phone on the sofa at home. Idiot me.

[queenbookwench.livejournal.com]

I've been meaning to call you too. I'll try to get in touch sometime this week. And I'm fine really, just looking at the Big Scary Future and not handling it all that well.